snowed in....

4-5 feet of that lovey white fluffy stuff
at least we get to spend more family time together!!!

now if the power can just stay on...

So kiss me and smile for me,
Tell me that you'll wait for me,
Hold me like you'll never let me go.
'Cause I'm leavin' on a jet plane,
Don't know when I'll be back again,
Oh, babe, I hate to go.

Quote O' the Day:

"Laughter turns you into a human vibrator that massages every practically every organ in your body."

Gelotology Institute of Stanford Medical School

Oh really now....(hee-hee-hee) ;-D

joey just shot for the cover for infoworld - it'll be on the racks march 26

personally, i think he was the cutest out of the 5 of them - but i do admit i am biased ;)

whew - i had the worst flu for about three weeks. then our little one got it. and now joey has it. we've been drinking oodles of ginger tea...

anyways, my mom is pregnant!!!!! how excitng! how adorable! how...um, weird...
she's young (38) but its still a little strange to have a young brother or sister that's younger than your own little one if you know what i mean...
she went to the emergency room for acute bleeding and they told her that the pregnancy might not go through, but it hasnt been confirmed...
she's going to see her regular doctor today.

hang on little brother or sister!!!

i saw him yesterday. at least i think i did.

i still have nightmares. he met my mom when i was in first grade. then we moved to san jose with him. it started out innocently i guess - he told crude jokes about body parts that no 2nd grader should hear. over the years it got worse...and more personal. he told me about the first time he did it. with a married woman he was babysitting for. he told me other things too. i hated him. i hated being alone with him. by 7th grade, he asked me to do things with him. i never did of course. but i didnt feel safe in my own house. gave me the creeps. i lived with my grandmother when i could. and eventually i didnt go home anymore.

okay, so i turned 22 yesterday. now what? btw, thanks to those who sent out their b-day greetings. you made me feel so speeeyyshaaal (haha)!

my mum came up for the weekend. shes such a wonderful person with the most giving heart. sigh. wish she'd move up closer.

so our agent calls and says,"is joey a vegetarian? a REAL vegetarian?"yup - we both are - we just got profiled in a local newsletter too "great, i've got a commercial for him that shoots this friday in la..." yipee!
later i call back and she says "opps they meant veteranarian"

on being a mom:

i'm exhausted.

joey's going down to the city again today for another commercial audition. he looked so kee-ute this morning...and smelled good too. *sigh* he was actually wearing color!

i'm glad that joey was my first serious boyfriend. its just so much more special that way, and i don't regret marrying the only guy i've ever kissed (you know, romantically *blush*) or ANYTHINGED with.

I dunno. Kids these days are just growing up so fast. I mean, i knew people that had several abortions before we even entered high school. i remember feeling so weird about the whole boy-girl thing back then. i was so adamant and so particular about who my first kiss was going to, that i waited until i was 17 to "give it up." golly - giving it up means so much more than a kiss now. eeks.

r* - if you're reading this, you know i'm thinking about you...so please be careful. i love you much and just don't want to see you get hurt or anything.

hey look - my first published article! front page too!
Bay Area Casting News

you ever get that blue-lagoony-dewy girl feeling? you know, where the bills are paid, you feel good about yourself, and you're all warm and snuggly with your family on a cold snowy night?

*sigh* i had it a couple of nights back...but dog-gone-it I lost it again.

yesterday i had an audition for walmart. even if i don't get this job - i think i made a good impression on the cd - who btw was reaaaaaaaallllly nice. it was my first time in his casting office. i'm sure he'll keep me in mind for other stuff.

what really got to me was that i was supposed to wait for our little one and joey to drive by and pick me up in front. okay - this is downtown sf guys, and even though i grew up in the city, i'm totally a country bumpkin now - and all these people are getting into my personal space!!! argh! like 3 security guard guys that smelled of rotten chinese food had me uncomfortably backed into the corner and then some old guy in golf attire whizzed by me (like almost hitting me) on his scooter....(which btw reminded me of you gerard - the scooter and not the old guy. haha)

anyways, i know, i know - its the city....but puh-leeeeeze - if i don't know you - don't get so close to me that i can smell your deoderant (of lack of) when we are on a city sidewalk thats at least 10 feet wide. okay?

my mum is leaving for italy today...shes turning 38 on the 18th - ack! now your age is revealed on the www!!!! haha. my mum's got the confidence to know she's beautiful at any age - even though 38 is NOT EVEN old!!!! anyways, i love you, have a nice trip and come back home safely!!! oh yeah, make sure tito rowell doesn't get in any fights with those aye-talian guys that pinch your bum...

after tube feeding Goner for nearly a week. he stopped breathing yesterday. joey buried him beside one of the majestic pine trees in our back yard. we'll miss you little miracle puppy.

many many blessings

mikah went in to labor friday night and joey had to take her to the vet on sabbath morning because something went wrong with the delivery and we couldnt figure out what it was. first he got all teary - he loves animals and gets all emotional because of the new puppies and then he started crying because something wrong was happening and one of the puppies didn't make it. so joey packs up the pups and the momma and takes them down to the vet. they find out that mikah still has a puppy stuck in her that might be stillborn so she needs surgery. the vet puts the dead puppy in a brown bag and tells joey to come back at 4. he comes back and the vet and their eight assistants are waiting for him. we have news for you they say....mikah is recouperating and the puppy inside her survived....andd while we were operating on her we started to hear sounds coming out of the brown bag - we've named him Goner.

so now mikah, kibu, kitadin, chi-bu, nipeese and puppies are all doing fine. my mom (who is a dog lover too) says that we are very, very blessed. i agree. btw, mom wants Goner cause he's a "lucky puppy."

its funny...when i was in high school, i always thought i'd die before i hit thirty. actually, i didn't want to live past thirty...it seemed well, old at that time. now, with joey, i actually look forward to growing gray hairs and sitting on benches feeding pigeons or squirrels as long as we're together.i can't imagine grandchildren just yet - but i'm sure it'll be fun!

i want him to grow up with all the innocence that children should have. to not lose that so quickly.

to be street smart but not jaded.
to be aware of the world we live in yet optimistic
to be guarded but yet still open.
to feel safe and secure but not naive.

heres the real deal: actors/models are NOT special. they are very replacable. thats why you MUST be in top form at all times.